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Meandering thoughts of a Bay Area college student… be prepared for some bipolar vocabulary

Hello again everyone

I’m so glad to be back (on this blog) that is. It’s been quite an eventful ride so far here at San Francisco State.  There were a lot of ups and downs. I’ve lost a friend but gained many more. I’ve discovered some of my capabilities as a person and managed to chart out some of my boundaries.

For a business class, I took a test that told me that I’m an extrovert. I’ve always thought of myself as a sort of outgoing person… sort of. After awhile, networking becomes tiring. I’ve met too many people, these weak bonds I’ve quickly forged become saturated in my life. The older, stronger bonds strongly contrast against these. In the past, I haven’t had too many acquaintances, just people from friends to even closer friends. Now I find myself in a situation that I haven’t imagined myself to be in, not because it was impossible to picture it, but because it goes against who I am as a person.

This is probably one of my weaknesses that must be corrected if I’m to survive in the business world. Well, that’s not necessarily true; my professor once told me that in the business world, 80% are extroverts while the remaining are introverted. But. The one important thing I’ve taken away from these several weeks is that networking is key. Where you go depends on the people you meet and know. So, it goes to follow that the more people you know, the better off you’ll be. But that’s just it.

People you know. Is that all that’s required? It feels so impersonal to me. It’s not necessary to form a closer bond with them. Plus once you know so many, I imagine it’s very difficult to be very close to every single person I’ve met. My Facebook friends is a testament to that. The other day, a finance club I’m in went out to dinner. I shared a table with maybe twenty other people. I’ve never felt so alone though. I’ve taken a glimpse at the finance world. It’s fucking scary.

I’ve also joined a Christian fellowship. These guys are a bit better at forming close friendships, but again there are just so many people I need to meet and remember the names of. It’s an extraordinarily different environment though. Everyone is easier to talk to, subjects don’t remain on finance, what to invest in, and graduate school. None of you guys are reading this, but I appreciate you guys a lot. 

Despite these ups and downs, I’m still happy with where this path has taken me. 

Everything else in my life has been going somewhat smoothly. I’m still in a happy relationship despite opposition and I’m seeing my friends more often than I thought I would. 

I’ve also gone paintballing for the first time. That shit was pretty fun.

I’ll talk to you guys soon. Ahahaha, I don’t know if you guys believe that anymore. But I’ll definitely try.

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