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Meandering thoughts of a Bay Area college student… be prepared for some bipolar vocabulary

Hello again.

Hi, everybody. I heard you guys are living wonderful lives! Well, okay I didn’t hear anything, I just assumed.

Nothing much going on on my end. 

I’m about to leave for a six day family vacation to SOCAL and Las Vegas. I’m more worried about my parents fighting than anything else really. It almost always happens. That, plus the fact that I can’t watch the opening ceremony of the London 2012 Olympics because I don’t have NBC is the cherry on top of my sour mood sundae. 

I spent the day with some old friends today, people I haven’t seen for several years. Despite some stutters in the beginning, conversation slowly became more natural. I ended up having a pretty darn good time. One of them just got off of a plane that came from Europe. It turns out she vacationed in Ireland by herself! She’s younger than I am! 

I honestly can’t wait for my first time abroad without any parents. Just on my own, or maybe with a friend or two. Going to get lost in Seoul or Venice. Going to explore the night lives of Tokyo or Paris. Try the street foods of Saigon and Taipei. Our world feels so small and insignificant as it circles the center of our galaxy doesn’t it? And yet there’s just so much experience to gather and a gazillion things to do. 

I want to leave the United States early in the morning. 2 AM sounds amazing. I want to arrive at my destination in the evening with just enough time to check into my room and grab dinner at a local restaurant before I crash. I want the hustle and bustle of the city to be my alarm clock! I want to be surrounded by friends I’ve brought along plus the friends I will make. 

Okay, I’m not the most outgoing person in the world, but a guy can dream right? 

But for now, I’ll settle for the heat of southern California and Las Vegas. We might even make a trip to the Grand Canyon. I wonder if it’ll be as amazing as the National Geographic magazines make it out to be. We’ll see.

Oh, the Grand Canyon is in Arizona right? I hope their recent reputation of being extremely racist is only the media blowing things up. 


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An old post that hasn’t been published.

Hey guys! With midterms finally over and midterms just a day or two away, I’m surprisingly not as stressed as I really ought to be. I’m a bit behind on my studying sure, but only by my standards hopefully. See, there’s this thing you need to look out for called “The Planner’s Fallacy.”

If you think you’ll be at a friend’s house in five minutes, say you’ll be over in seven to ten minutes. If you think you’ll be free around 1:30, tell them you’ll be free at 2:30. It’s not that things will always go wrong, only that you often overestimate yourself. So normally I prepare for a midterm the night before it’s due (haha, yeah!), but I really give myself a week to prepare. But still even with all of this cushion, it’s still really difficult for me to concentrate.

I’m having a problem. A new discovery about myself that I hadn’t noticed: I tend to have more fun around people I haven’t hung out with. The reason I hadn’t noticed before was because I only hang out with the same group, until recently. Well, now I’m kind of nervous that this post will be tainted with betrayal.

The jokes seem to be funnier, conversation takes less effort, and the urge to be spontaneous emerges. Isn’t it supposed to be the other way around? I don’t really know what to make of it at the moment, except that it’s a welcome discovery. The fact that it’s welcome saddens me in a way. It completely goes against my principles.

A small possibility emerges. Maybe the friends I’ve become close to aren’t as compatible with me as I thought. But how could that be true after knowing them for seven years? Have we changed so much that it reached the point of no return? Everyone seems to be having such a good time around each other. Why can’t I? Why am I so unhappy whenever certain people show up?

Why is it this way for me, with each group being “replaced” by the next?

Hopefully I just feel this way because of distance. But if that’s the case I have issues to resolve because I won’t be seeing much of anybody when I move out to my San Francisco apartment.

Only time will tell.

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